well, just an update so you know i'm alive....I had a d&c on Tuesday up at LDS hospital, it was an all day thing and so glad it's over. I feel like my body has been through a bad beating...but it's getting better. Just really hard to wrap your brain around the fact that you aren't pregnant anymore.....that will take time. We are all really sad here at our house, but also very blessed. We have 3 beautiful, healthy children, i have the best husband ever, the greatest neighborhood and friends anyone could ask for...a wonderful house, etc......things happen for a reason, and I have learned time doesn't stop for you, so you have to just keep truckin' on....kids still have to go to school the next day, bills are still due etc.....this has brought us closer together as a family and really taught us to be grateful for what we have. Thanks for all the nice words, meals, flowers, emails, phone calls, thoughts, prayers etc.....everyone has been so great. And we will be ok....

michelle